can't seem to get any rest today.. n today's suppose to be my rest day.. i'm sick.. down with a flu.. that alone can make a person weak.. finish up the hall of my house n went to bed.. few minutes later get a call from nur, so i told her i wanted to have some rest.. asked her a favour to call me @ 3pm to wake me up.. instead of having around 45mins rest, i get calls from my collegues!! first rosbaha, then baideen, then rosbaha again, then baideen again.. sigh... i got fed up.. in the end nur call me @ around 3pm.. i mentioned to har wat happened.. ges it was the tone of my voice.. she hanged up on me.. left me wondering wat did i do to make her hang up on me halfway thru my sentence.. it took me quite awhile.. realise cos there was anger in my voice n she thought i was angry at her for waking me up or calling me.. called her to rectify the misunderstanding.. she didn't pickup.. kept insisting i scolded her for calling.. angry at her for calling.. i was already fed up i didn't feel rested at all cos of the calls n msgs.. n now this!! got angry bcos of that.. n now, bcos of my anger i mentioned i'd die if i eva feel like a nobody to her, she's finding it hard to trust me, feel for me, love me, n esp accepting me as her future husband... all because of my bloody shitty anger.. shit!!

tat's all.. keep u posted..