Late Night

here i am, still awake.. i'm on nite watch for my granny.. she's staying over at my place for i dunno how long.. her mind's not doing well anymore.. at times, she would ask for people whom i don't even know my entire life.. basically coz they're no longer alive.. sometimes she asked for people who dun live here.. she wants to see them.. she wants to know if they're back home..

kept telling her they're not here.. and they're already asleep.. she still insisted.. i know she's my granny.. but at times i can't stand it! i'm a hot-tempered shithead and she's an old lady whom i've always respected in so many ways.. she took care of my while i was really really young and tiny.. i can't bear to be rude to her.. but it's so difficult..

she kept telling me dat i dun let her see those people.. she also said that when she dies, she dunno if i'll really go visit her grave!! i was really shocked.. she said i dun let her visit her granny!! when's the last time she visited her granny!?! i dun recall even once!!

i'm working in the morning..

just checked on her again.. she's sitting on the floor.. folding her clothes.. and not sleeping.. can u imagine? here i am only the first night taking care of my dear old granny and i'm already impatient.. what about those people taking care of old folks? sheesh.. i really can't imagine the vast amount of patience they have!!

i'm working in the morning..

just checked on her again.. this time, she's reading the Qur'an.. good, at least i have a bit of time to myself..

just this evening, had an arguement with my dearest.. it's about the same old thing about me have grudges against her family.. whenever we have plans, and i involves borrowing her dad's car, there's always something they want us to do, run errands or something like that..

this have been going on ever since the day i can remember running errands for her family.. guess today was the point where dearest nur couldn't stand my intolerance towards her family.. she's right to do that.. it's her family! duh!!

when the beautiful nite came down upon us, we started the huge arguement.. actually ended up with an agreement, which i wasn't satisfied cos from the way she behave didn't convince me it was settled..

till it came... she ordered me to stop the car..(i was just moving off to send nur home, and driving like a lunatic)..

inturruption... granny went to the toilet.. but before that, she walked to the hall and told me she's gonna wait for someone.. didn't get the name.. but she's not gonna sleep till that person she's waiting is back home.. looks like it's gonna be a long long night... sigh..

it's 3.15am.. and i'm working tmr..

aww.. she's sitting and the door of the room and babbling about her grandson and her son.. and someone else whose name i don't know..

long night... long night...

let's continue.. i stopped the car and she went off.. i nearly drove off and leave her behind.. but i just couldn't do it.. i love her too much to leave her alone just like that.. plus i was the one who asked her out to settle this.. so it's my responsibility to bring her back home safely..

got to settle the differences.. alhamdulillah.. sent her home safely.. i realised after that arguement/fight.. i seem to love her more.. i really do..

it's such an amazing and wonder that i love her more, after a huge arguement/fight with her..

very much wanna sleep.. i can't... have to be on guard for my dear granny..

well.. shitty me signing off..